Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Protecting the Intimacy in your Relationship

What is Intimacy?

According to Webster's Dictionary to be intimate is to be 1: intrinsic; also innermost 2: marked by very close association, contact, or familiarity 3. marked by a warm friendship 4: suggesting informal warmth or privacy 5: of a very personal or private nature.

Everyone craves intimacy, a relationship of closeness and love. In this new place of believing and faith we have to take weapons to help in each quest we embark on. As we desire intimacy we must use his word to inspire divine action:

So how do we get there? Fighting with Faith and Prayer, Meditation, Eagerly Seeking Him, Honestly- In Spirit and Truth (which is letting go of everything and letting God direct you-coming before him clean and free-leaving it all to him-patiently waiting for his directive), Reading, Absorbing, and Submitting.-All things will be made clear for his children, all paths will be made straight, clarity is yours-and so is God if you seek him.


Know that........

Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those that love him.
James 1:12

Understand that tests will come in the very area that you are asking God about, do not fret. I have and am still learning that when we understand that in our weakness he is made strong (2 Corinthians 12: 9-10) we are closer than we think. In this passage of scripture (2 Corinthians 12: 9-10) Paul was asking God to take away what he saw as a block for him- he called it a thorn in his side, now God's answer can seem strange to some but consider this.......... would God get more glory out of of taking the issue away from Paul so he could continue with ministry or by allowing His grace to enable Paul to overcome the issue and allowing everyone to see that even though this is something that is there God's power is still greater- what you think?

Let us have patience in our deliverance processes and what God chooses for us to endure.
Be sure to........

So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purity your hearts, for you loyalty is divided between God and the world. Let there be tears for what you have done. Let there be sorrow and deep grief. Let there be sadness instead of laughter, and gloom instead of joy. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor.
James 4: 7-10

Give yourself to God, and resist the devil's attempts to ensnare you. Sometimes we think it is so hard to fight the devil when usually all we have to do is resist him and he will go away. Often in our quest we come face to face with temptation. I am one that knows how real, true, and good this temptation is set up to look like-but temptation is just that, and it is the source of our own lust. (James 1:14) . That's why it so important to be lead to the next part of the scripture-cleansing (psalm 51 is good for this as well)

A Good Word on your Pursuit of Him..........

I will sing of your love and justice, Lord.
I will praise you with songs.
I will be careful to live a blameless life—
when will you come to help me?
I will lead a life of integrity
in my own home.
I will refuse to look at
anything vile and vulgar.
I hate all who deal crookedly;
I will have nothing to do with them.
I will reject perverse ideas
and stay away from every evil.
I will not tolerate people who slander their neighbors.
I will not endure conceit and pride.
I will search for faithful people
to be my companions.
Only those who are above reproach
will be allowed to serve me.
I will not allow deceivers to serve in my house,
and liars will not stay in my presence.
My daily task will be to ferret out the wicked
and free the city of the Lord from their grip.
Psalms 101

David was determined huh? Sounds like it. We should be the same rejecting, refusing, and not tolerating less than God's best for our lives.

The road to intimacy is a fight but the more you look into the love of God the easier it becomes and it seems as things that were important once just are not that important anymore. Your perspective changes your perception and there births healthy change.

I will retire this blog entry with the prayer from the book of Jude- verses 24-25

Now all glory to God, who is able to keep you from falling away and will bring you with great joy into his glorious presence without a single fault. All glory to him who alone is God, our Savior through Jesus Christ our Lord. All glory, majesty, power, and authority are his before all time, and in the present, and beyond all time! Amen.



P.S. Funny how there was a lot of warfare by distraction while I was trying to write this blog entry. Oh well- the demonic mission was ABORTED and God gets the glory! SCORE************ :)

Until next time*

Monday, February 8, 2010

Repeat Offenders: Breaking Away from Toxic Behavior and Using God's Wisdom BEFORE the Fall.

So, you did it again. Its the same thing as last time, __________________(place your vice there).

Have you ever considered yourself a repeat offender? Falling into a trap only to realize that you have been here before? Did this circumstance remind you of the picture above? Meaning that in an extreme time you resorted to seeking God because all your other options had been exhausted? What if we broke away from the mundane and embraced the miraculous? Once again I am at the place of mind renewal.

I desire intimacy but I act as if I am scared to receive it. I do not work for it like I should, so then I have to go back and ask the question...........do I want intimacy? No matter how much it hurts the true answer to this question is no. I allow the principalities and powers to distance me from building a real relationship.

I look at how I used to approach relationships, friendships, romantic interests, etc. I have never been a fan of the initial meeting, it made me very uncomfortable. To avoid the awkwardness of the first encounter, I chose to act as if I already knew you, we had a great relationship, and have been friends for life. This would work hands down every time but I was not aware of the golden nuggets lost or danger signs missed in trying to rush things in my own strength. Relationships cannot be manufactured, therefore I would always end up unsatisfied with where the relationship would go. Warnings and red flags cannot go up without the chance to get a feel for a person and their behavior. Things were rushed and everything needs time to develop. I look back and realize I applied that same "get friends quick scheme" to my relationship with God, how dumb.

What was my result you ask? Well, I found myself in a constant battle with the same things. My relationship with God was pretty bi-polar and unstable. I would find myself pleading to hear from God after I made a less than intelligent decision and I would have to suffer whatever consequences there were. I would think.................hmmmmmm something is wrong. Here I am bound again crying out to God about a mistake that I made before, how dumb..............did I learn my lesson after that? Nope.

The depths of the downward spiral of the ignorant are amazing. I am sure onlookers pray thinking, "How low will they go until they see it God, please have mercy on them." Well, in my case, I thank God for his mercy and the prayers of others. It took a long time to see the depths of my pain and how ignorant I was to the things of God through my trying to protect myself. I would desire a free life but when on parole I would mess up every time and get locked up all over again. Just like the picture, seeking the scriptures for an answer. Hindsight is truly 20/20 yeah, but so is God's word- his wisdom protects you from the chaos. I would get out of jail after a major offense, get on parole and about 6 months later, Mr. Perfect or better yet, Mr. Perfect TIMING, demonically assigned to get me off the mark by distraction. Worked EVERY time, my desire for marriage was strong and it seemed as if the counterfeits would get closer and closer to that image. This, would be what one of my fellow young adult leaders calls an "EPIC FAIL". As I grew in Christ the sin nature was starved more and more but not to the point of fully surrendering to the Lord. I went from having sex, to only messing around, to just kissing, to emotional relationships, to only realize that they get the same result- less than God's best for your life, conviction, fighting shame, guilt, depression, loss of self worth, confusion, gossip, chaos, drama, etc. It's like a demonic smorgasbord and I stand there as an idiot with the door open wide to get attacked because of MY OWN LUST for something I am not being patient for.


I had to learn and it took time, for me, A LOT OF TIME, but I learned and that is what's most important. Now I am committed to preserving purity, the wealth in waiting, and gaining character through Christ. Now i have loads of siblings in Christ-all healthy relationships and am patiently waiting for my MOG (as I affectionately call him which = Man of God) Although I must admit, I rather enjoy being a spokesperson for contentment in singleness. Just think, you can either enjoy your process or loathe it, which one will you choose? I choose to enjoy life.

God will not get played, he is like the Washington Post, "If you don't get it, you don't get it". So needless to say the half stepping is a waste of time and trust me on this don't go down that road, take the wisdom of someone who has travelled down the road (blessed to survive) nothing but death lives there. Submitting to the Lord can seem really scary however, that's the only way to do it AND God is with you. So sit back, relax and trust God- when you put things in his hands its like putting a car in cruise control or the plane on auto-pilot. He has it and knows exactly how to set the GPS for the next destination.

To wage war and reclaim your mind you need some weaponry- here is something to get you started:

Romans 12:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will

Romans 8:5
Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.

Romans 8:7
the sinful mind is hostile to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so.

Ephesians 4:22-24
22You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; 23to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

Colossians 3:2
Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.

James 4:8
Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

1 Peter 1:13
[ Be Holy ] Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed

So you say, I have read the bible, prayed, am expecting change. Then I will challenge you, are you meditating, are you praying with the scriptures you have internalized, how you do conduct yourself in temptation? Do you fight in prayer or stand by idle? To be a believer is to believe that God's word is true. To believe that God's word is true is admitting that in some area you have not fully committed. I know I have honestly not done everything needed for full submission nor full transformation of the mind so, I choose to repent, move forward and commit to a time of study to get me there. You should join me.

For the next 30 days let's reboot. Let's allow God to reprogram our hard drive. This means starving your eyes, ears, hands and time to anything that is not producing Godly fruit. Hold your tongue, practice self control, and patience. Have faith, expect a change, and there will be.

On your mark, get set, GOOOOOOOO

Dear Lord,

We thank you for never leaving us and never forsaking us. We thank you for your mercy, lovingkindness, grace, and patience you show us. We repent for loss of heart, faith, and motivation when it comes to building a relationship with you. Lord, teach us through your word how to renew our minds and keep your word as our standard. God let us connect with your word by fighting weariness and fainting in well doing but allow us to reap as we continue in you. Let this mind be in us that is also in you. Let us openly allow your word to saturate our soil as good seeds have been planted.

I speak against any mental attack right now in the name of Jesus for anyone that wants to grow closer to you God. I cancel every assignment in the name of Jesus and speak victory even before we see results, I plead the blood over the minds of your children and ask that the things of God are made clear. God I thank you for clarity through your word-having full knowledge that nothing can disconnect us from you and what you have from us. satan is an accuser and has no real power we are not and will not be distracted by distress, confusion, lies, manipulation, abuse, discord, or division. We will walk victoriously as we learn to be KINGDOM THINKERS. I ask this in the mighty name of Jesus that makes all things possible for us.


Be like a post-it note and stick to it* YOU WILL SEE CHANGE~



Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall-when I lean to myself I always fall*

Time for change, there is a need.

Isaiah 59:1 says:

Listen! The Lord's arm is not to weak to save you, nor is his ear too deaf to hear you call.

I keep this word close to my heart as I travel to where he is, leaving all of me behind in search of something new.

In the journey of exploration and self discovery, many things are exposed as I open up for examination. In this grueling process I have let dreams die, be re-born, all the while struggling with faith and a sense of identity. I see that the deeper I go and the more I am exposed to the core, the more I have stood in the way of my dreams. As I have lost faith in the past day after day would go by where I was not motivated in my pursuit and I would stand by idle as life would pass me on the roadside. Well not anymore.

Through my struggles I have learned what I need to improve on my spiritual fight and where my faith walk is. A simple task can become a mountain when not dealt with. "Being made in His image", "Overcomer", and "Grace" have whole new meaning to me in this current place as I am understanding that with prayer and expectation for spiritual growth that His image is my goal- with that persecution, accusation, and purging. Although those things should not overshadow the growth, power, strength, peace, joy and relationship gained. The overcomer is what I was born to be, however sometimes the sight of the dragon makes me fearful of its fire but its just a scare tactic. The only fire I embrace is the refiners fire, that melts away me- destined to make me more like Him. It is when I decide to take captive of the thoughts and walk in His word that I can ever connect with who this overcomer in me is. Then there is grace, the ability to do it. This grace combined with faith propels me from fear to the place of the overcomer- I just need to move.

It may seem as if I am rambling on like a mad man trying to collect my thoughts, but rather I am someone who used to be mad trying to convey my thoughts to you, with a glad heart- he heals, delivers and gives us Liberty. A sound mind is a powerful gift from God and all those that have it should never fail to praise Him- I am so thankful.

The mirror has always been a scary thing to me from the imperfections on the surface (i.e. the occasional pimple, combination skin) to what lies deeply beneath (the deep wounds from the past), the mirror tells all. There is no hiding with God. The act of "keeping up appearances" is obsolete and you are exposed for what's in your heart. Aaaaaaaaaaaahh, what's in the heart? Sometimes I think there is more in my heart than I can compute. My dreams, desires, and motivations all lead toward the same thing-freedom for me and freedom for others. Freedom from situations, circumstances, but most of all freedom from ones self. Mirrors reflect, and as I internalize that fact- I think what am I reflecting daily? Could it be character and integrity or instability and confusion? I thank God for His Holy Spirit and word that draws me in often- when I go on a mental journey about how I am perceived.

I have gathered that I stand in the shoes of my own worst enemy at times. The battle of the flesh and pride is not anything I have not shared before, although my desire for change is. I have fallen recently into a huge hole of despair by my own doing and this is something that I plan to break this year. How can I be an agent for change if I behave as the world does- thrown to and fro with the wind. There has got to be something different.

Galatians 3:3 asks

How foolish can you be? After starting your Christian lives in the Spirit, why are you now trying to become perfect by your own human effort?

We cannot gain this thing called a relationship without death. Many avoid the grave but its the only way to live, just as we leave our earthly bodies to be with the Lord so we leave our earthly minds to take on the mind of Christ. Time for a reboot.

God's mirror reveals that I am intimidated by the work and lack the faith I need to get there.

I am on the "DO BETTER" campaign (a silly saying that a close friend developed to promote growth in all aspects, I concur)

I see I have some work to do.


New Goals
Celebrate Small Victories
Make the Most Out of Every Moment
Kill the flesh, DIE, DIE ,DIE
Remain Grateful-Praise Constantly
Make an Effort to Do what I Know I Ought